My First Hospital Visit.

10/28/12

Well folks,
I am turning 18 in 4 days.
Holy shit.
The funny thing is for my big 18th birthday, the only gift I want is a book. I don't know what else I want.
I'm in college and jobless, so money would be nice I suppose.
Maybe a Vanilla MasterCard so I can shop online?
I really don't know.
I remember turning 17.
I had a cake and a party. I had so much fun.

But this year?

I have nothing planned at all.

No cake.

No party.

No presents.

I don't even get to see my family or boyfriend until a week after my birthday.

So it really doesn't feel like my birthday is coming up at all.

I always thought turning 18 would be so exciting.

It's not.

Well now. This is just sad.

I'm complaining about my birthday. *facepalm*

Well, Halloween is in 3 days, though it doesn't feel like it. I have a costume and will be trick 'r treating regardless of my age. I am such a child.

I am also sick. I have strep throat. again.

I am literally ALWAYS sick. Stupid immune system.

10/30/12

So I went to the hospital today, it turns out I do not have strep, I have what is called Throat Abscess.
Basically puss behind my tonsil. Gross sounding, I know.
I was hooked up to an IV and had blood taken.
Then, I had a specialist come and he had to stick needles in my throat (4 to be exact)
The first needle he used was to inject something to freeze my throat.
The second, third and fourth were to (for lack of a better word) suck out the puss.
Between tattoos and piercings, those needles in my throat hurt WAY more.

I was given 2 different medications and told to go back on Thursday (my 18th birthday) to have more needles shoved down my throat...

My mom is coming to Cornwall tomorrow and her and I will be staying in a hotel, so she will be here with me and she will take me to the hospital on Thurs.
What upsets me more than anything believe it or not, is that Halloween is tomorrow, my FAVOURITE holiday, and I might not be able to trick or treat, though I think I'll try to anyways, regardless of how I feel.
I was given the option to stay overnight at the hospital, but I feel I don't need to take up their bed-space when somebody who is more ill then I am might need it, if anything goes wrong I can always go back, plus I am going back on Thursday.
Well, I think I should probably get some sleep and just relax.
Goodnight and I hope everyone is doing better then I am ! xD

Life Starts Now, am I ready?

Drama, Jobs, Tattoos, Life.

Hey everyone,
So I haven't written here in awhile, I've been really stressed and busy lately.
So, for college, I'm not sure what to say...
Classes are going okay, I have a LOT of homework though >.<
Not like SUPER hard homework or anything, just a lot and very time consuming.
Living in residence... I'm not sure how I feel about it really... I feel out of place here honestly, I don't really hang out with the people I technically live with, I don't talk to any of them, I keep to myself and my friends outside of residence, like my friend Lexie in my course and a few others in my course as well as some people who aren't in my course that I know.
I feel like people in residence don't like me, I just feel out of place, even unwelcome...
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe if I actually left my room and talked to people here they'd like me, but I don't know, I don't want to I guess.

I've been really stressed lately, it's been almost 2 months, I'm still jobless, I miss Kingston and my family, friends and boyfriend... I have SO much going on it's ridiculous, honestly.
I won't bore everyone with my problems though.

So I started taking Methylphenidate, which is also called Concerta, it's a lot like Ritalin, for my ADHD and it's also for depression, some of the side effects freak me out, but so far the only side effects that it has caused me is MAJOR loss of appetite and random body twitches, I only started taking them on Wednesday, so it's my third day taking them and in the last 3 days, I have eaten pretty much nothing, I tried force feeding but...it's hard to explain, it's not that I feel full, it's that I can't eat, I just can't..It's really hard to explain xS
Well, anyways, in the last 3 days, I've dropped 6 pounds...that's not normal, I don't know if it's because I haven't eaten or if it's just the pills, because not eating for 3 days shouldn't cause you to drop 6 pounds.

So by now, I'm sure EVERYONE knows, I have a tattoo of a bird with the words "I'm free" written underneath it !

I completely love my tattoo. I am very happy with my decision to get it!
I have another tattoo planned, probably my next one, for my 18th birthday I want to get the quote
"Mother is God in the eyes of a child"
from the movie Silent Hill.
I am most likely getting it on my left foot, not 100% sure if that's where I will get it but it's where I want it right now.










Opinions, the font and size and placement look nice?
So everyone knows I LOVE the movie Silent Hill and have been dying for a second one for 6 years, I first saw it when I was 12 at my friends birthday party sleepover. I was scared shitless xD I was BEYOND excited when I found out there is finally a second one coming out this month, though it looks a lot different and I don't know what to expect really, I know a lot of new characters and monsters and such will be in it.
But it's my second favourite movie, right after 50 First Dates.
That quote was said by the cop first, Officer Bennett! and then near the end it was said by Rose, Sharon's mom, or adoptive mom.
But it is true, as a kid and even now, I am close with my mom, I go to her for advice and look up to her. 
I love my dad and look up to him and go to him for advice too, obviously, and I will get a tattoo for him soon but I haven't decided what yet. 

Anyways, I think I will wrap this up now.

Life Starts Now, am I ready?