Hello...
So today has been pretty tough for me, yesterday was too, but for different reasons...
Yesterday, somebody started a rumour about me that is untrue, even after high school, there are still people who are completely immature. This rumour was horrible and supposed to change the feelings of somebody close to me, it could have ruined a lot and really affected my life, I found out who started this rumour and I already know why; jealousy, immaturity and down right idiocy. They hate me for no good reason, I did absolutely nothing to them, they simply have nothing better to do with their life other then try to get involved and ruin mine. To make it worse they brought my best friend and her boyfriend into this rumour, making them look bad as well, they also did nothing to deserve this, even though the rumour was about me and used to hurt somebody else.
I am just happy that the person this rumour was supposed to hurt, trusts me and knows me better, if you haven't guessed who this rumour was supposed to affect yet, it was Billy, my boyfriend. I wont go on to tell you who started this rumour or what it was, but some of you may be able to guess that as well.
I had a horrible day yesterday because of it.
Now, for today, I am still bothered by that rumour, but as well, my hamster passed away, I am not one to choose favourites, but this hamster was the sweetest, and I have...had 4...I now have 3. Spider-Man was the second hamster.
I bought Mary-Jane, then later on bought Spider-Man, they had a litter of pups, I kept one and named her Alice, then a few months ago I bought Jasper.
Spider-Man and Mary-Jane are 3, almost 4 years old.
I always thought Mary-Jane would pass first, since she is older, but she is still fighting, though she is balding and has troubles walking; she often falls onto her back.
She has always been a tough hamster.
Spider-Man passed away this morning, I didn't think I would cry when my hamsters passed, but I did.
I am moving to Cornwall in 11 days, so I am glad that I was here when he passed, though I'd prefer he didn't at all. I know Mary-Jane is going to die very soon, I would rather be here when she does, but I don't want her to die before I go, because that's only 11 days.
And even more things stressing me out is college, I don't want to be so far away, now that rumour is one reason why I didn't want to leave, because I knew that that person was going to do something to try to hurt my relationship, and if I wasn't here, it could have been really bad. I know when I leave, this person will continue to try to hurt my relationship and with me not being here, it is going to be difficult to deal with.
I haven't talked to them, I don't want to stoop to their level, I don't want to name anybody, and I don't want to get into any fights, unlike them I have class (even though on the inside I want to go over to their house and beat their face in) but I won't, because I would like to keep my dignity, which they lost a long time ago.
I wont lie here, I almost called Kids Help Phone yesterday because I had no idea what to do in the situation I was put in because of this untrue rumour, instead, I told my dad and took his advice, which I am glad I did.
Everything is fine today as far as rumours go, but if that rumour is pushed again, I am going to lose it, I am sick of people having nothing better to do other than hurt people for no reason. Nobody deserves to be treated with so much disrespect.
So with that I will go, I don't want to write a novel about this because I believe my point has been stated multiple times.
I would appreciate prayers for my hamsters, it may seem silly to some people, but I do love them the same way I love my dog or my cats and even my sister, they are family.
Life Starts Now, am I ready?
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